Change

“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change." - C. Joybell C.

I have a desire to never stay static. I think that for me, the only thing I want to be constant in my life is constant change. Change, as difficult as it may be, is the most important part of my day to day life; not to say that I’m good at it. Actually, I’m terrible at it, but that's the thing: we get to change that. And at the end of the day, if I’ve improved in one small way, I’m a better person than I was yesterday. That’s the privilege of being a human. Every other creature runs on pure instinct and habit, yet we, humans, have self-awareness, consciousness, and drive. To have a hold of the wheel of our lives gives us enormous power. Perhaps we don’t get to control the roads, but we do have the ability to turn, to change, to push the gas, or to push the brakes. Change is often viewed as man's worst enemy, a horrible disease meant to destroy our lives; yet, change, to me, is my closest friend.  There is great solace in knowing that my life will not always be the same as it is now and if I so choose, I have the ability to improve; to become better.

Practically, change comes in small steps. For me, it takes recognizing a fault and instead of letting that put me down seeing it as an opportunity to be better; to learn. I see the problem in my life and think of practical, reasonable ways to improve. I don’t stress over it. Instead, I take it as an easy task, by only giving myself attainable goals. I’m a natural introvert so I’ll take events with lots of people and turn it into a game of sorts. I try and talk to as many people as possible and keep a conversation flowing. Usually, it's not easy, but I do it in order to improve my social skills. And I know you're reading this and you can see right through me. I’m a total dork (Something I won’t change), and so I write about my problems. I would say what I lack in social skills, I make up for in writing skills; but, you all know it’d be a lie.

Anyway. Change.


Change is the key to a fulfilling life, at least in my personal experience (and I’m only 16 so I don’t know much). But if I know one thing, it’s that I’m so far from perfect, and the only thing I can do is become better, and if I can achieve a little bit of that every day maybe someday I can be the person I see in my head.